Over the years there have been a few blogs I’ve followed where people blog about their lives. Their successes, failures, issues, and rewards. The author of one such blog recently decided to stop sharing her life. I never met her, or even interacted with her in anyway. I still feel a loss.

Earlier today I sent her an email wishing her well and letting her know I’m going to start blogging about my life.

I am self-conscious about the issues I deal with and am afraid to talk about them openly. I am hoping that if I talk about my issues it will help others. It may even help me.

Right now I am dealing with the recent loss of my father. He died at the end of August, so that is about three weeks ago. His death was sudden, he collapsed while shopping and was gone before the paramedics arrived. Dealing with this makes everything harder for me. All of my emotions are closer to the surface and I have difficulty containing them at times. I didn’t realize how my I would be affected by this.

My weight is another issue. At the end of 2016 I started working on weight loss. So far I’m down over 50 pounds. I can walk better and further than before. I’m a little frustrated however…I’m still wearing the same pants. You would think losing 50 pounds would have changed my waist size a little. Five weeks ago I started the Healthy Balance program through Kaiser Permanente. This program is similar to Weight Watchers. I’m learning more about nutrition and the mental issues relating to weight loss. I’m also meeting in a group environment, meeting with others and sharing has been good for me. I don’t interact with that many people right now. Eating healthy has been a challenge since my dad passed. I haven’t gained weight, but I haven’t lost anything either. I’m having problems passing on the comfort food.

There are so many more things I could talk about, but this is going to have to be enough for today.