It’s been a while since I’ve written about my journey with depression. My last big update was in November, and a small one in December. So, here it goes…
In general, I feel like I’m doing better than I was in the Fall. The holidays were a challenge for me, after the loss of my dad. It was troubling to not have him at family events.
I am still writing in my journal, this really helps me to clear thoughts out of my head and put them in a safe place for later. I’ve also taken a few classes and have a better understanding of the things I’m going through.
Looking into the future, I wonder what the future might look like. There are a few different paths that look interesting to me. Making plans for the future is still difficult however. Even the idea of getting a job is a challenge, I still have problems dealing with people. I think about changing my career focus.
I have been following a number of #vanlife people on social media. Their life appeals to me, not just having a nomadic life, but their value systems. Many have a value system that points towards having a fulfilling life instead of the search for money. Living a life of abundance and mindfulness. The basic attitude centers around enjoying life now, not working like a dog until you die.
I made good progress on my weight loss goals in 2017. I lost 72 pounds, I’m learning more healthy recipes trying to make my diet more plant-based. Many of my attempted recipes didn’t work out, not sure what I’m doing wrong, but I keep trying. Cutting dairy is proving to be a real challenge for me, one thing at a time I guess. Exercising is becoming easier, I’m not doing anything very strenuous yet. I can walk further and faster than a year ago, that’s something.
There are many other things I want to talk about, but I’m having problems finding the words. I’ll write again soon.
it reads to me that you are making decent progress. i really like the fifth paragraph. perhaps starting a few weeks at a time. i used to travel round with the Grateful Dead, somewhat similar experiences. not his best work, but Travels with Charlie may be entertaining. of course, Steinbeck was provided a truck, supplies and a lot of support. fun nonetheless.
Those are big changes, Mike! Good for you! We’re cheering you on.